Back at it ...

It's been some time since I posted on my blog due to having some time out from university but I am preparing to return and finally finish my first year of mental health nursing. When I first started I never thought I'd be one of the people that did't stay within the cohort. I thought I would be there for the long run. In a way I am, I am going to qualify as a mental health nurse just a little later than I had planned and a little later than those in my original cohort. I can't explain how excited I am to get back into things, I've missed placement so much. I'll be going straight back into placement for four weeks. I'll also have two assignments to get to grips with and resubmit but I have every faith in myself and I am going to plod on.

In all the time I've been away from university I've been working full time but I have tried to keep myself up to date with what's going on in the world of nursing. And one issue that I have been following is that of student bursaries. Before I go on I'd just like to put it out there that had there not been a bursary available when I applied for my nursing course, I never would have done it. This is because I simply would not have been able to afford to support myself. Similarly, if the axing of the bursary affected me as a continuing student, I would probably have to leave the course. I feel very fortunate to know that the bursary will be there to support me throughout the rest of my training, but I can't help but feel sorry for all those who wish to enter the nursing profession but will be prevented from doing so by lack of funding. I really do believe that getting rid of the bursary will cause applicant numbers to fall dramatically. Yes, there is a proposal that the bursary will be replaced with a system of loans, but for some people the amount of debt that they will be left with might not be worth coming into nurse training. 

There has been much talk of the need for a living wage, which although I know this would never be in place in time to apply to me if it did happen, I wholeheartedly support. Nurse training is a full time job in itself, not to mention the extra time we spend on completing assignments and on mandatory training from university among other things. We are not asking for student nurses to be paid the same amount as qualified nurses, but surely being paid proportionately to the amount of time we spend on placement working just as hard as those around us would be more appropriate. Not only that, it would show us that as student nurses we are appreciated and valued. A feeling which is very hard to come by at some points during your training. I'm sure all student nurses out there can relate to  that. 

In the grand scheme of things, whatever the Conservatives have planned for student nurses and the nursing profession as a whole, including the NHS is out of our control. We will just have to wait and see and accept whatever it is that they throw at us. And what will we do? We will push on, like we always do, we will strive to make it work. Because that's what we do, we nurse, we care, we push on and make the best of what we have. 

The Storm After The Calm?

I don't know why, but I've always been really laid back when it comes to exams. I leave revision until no earlier than the fortnight or sometimes the week before the exam, simply because I work better that way, if I attempt revision before then it will be of no use to me in the exam. One strange thing though, about my exam behavior is that I never get nervous beforehand. 

I've seen it time and time again, myself and my cohort or class waiting outside the examination hall, everyone with their heads in their notes and chatting anxiously about what the questions may be, panicking that they may have missed something in their revision. And then there's me. Literally, as calm as can be. It's not even as though I panic when I sit down in front of the paper, or while I'm writing, or when I leave. When I get home however, a completely different story ensues. This is the time that I worry, I turn the exam paper and the answers I wrote over again and again in my head. It's torture. Honestly, I realise that I am very lucky not to panic and become stressed before or during an exam, it really helps me to concentrate on answering the questions, but sometimes it really is a curse as well as a blessing. 

Sometimes I wonder if it's just me? I've never met anyone else who openly admits that they feel calm during an exam. I know the likelihood is that there is someone out there who experiences something similar, but I am yet to find them. I'm extremely thankful for being able to be this way. Hopefully it will help me through my time as a student. I must say however, like everyone else, I do not like exams. I think the idea of telling someone that they have X amount of time to answer questions and they must do so in exam conditions (which - although people may disagree - is not conducive to passing an exam, I don't know anyone who feels comfortable in an exam hall) throws people off. I know it has done for me in the past. I understand that the exam conditions are in place to prevent cheating etc, but the time limit is what really gets me. I know  that we couldn't have all the time in the world. But why not just say, answer the questions and when you're finished, hand your paper in and leave? Surely this would improve pass rates? Maybe it's just me, maybe people agree with me. It's just a thought. One that I know will never be the done thing. But a thought none the less. 

So here I am, post exam - the stress of worrying about last weeks exam is just about wearing off. Nobody likes waiting for things, and waiting for results can seem like a life time. I'm not entirely sure what the outcome may be, I'm not too confident. I faired better in one question than I did in the other, but we will see. 

Wish me luck! 

Life Before Nursing ...

Now, I know that some people say that they've always known what they wanted to do and went straight for it without straying away from their path, but what about the people - like me - who originally either weren't too sure about where they wanted to go and what they wanted to do with their life? I can only speak for myself here of course, but becoming a nurse has only been a recent ambition of mine. Before that I wanted to be a forensic scientist, and then a teacher. I had my heart set on being a teacher ... and then I went to college and studied psychology and that was the day it changed forever. I didn't at that time of course know immediately that I wanted to become a Mental Health Nurse, but that was the first step on the pathway towards where I am today, waiting to start my training. It was actually one of my tutors in college who suggested to me that instead of doing Law (which was another phase I went through, thankfully one which didn't last long) that I take a look into Mental Health Nursing - If I'm honest I didn't really know it was such a thing. I went home and did a little bit of research, and I made my decision, that was what I wanted to do with my life. I was going to become a Mental Health Nurse. 

 

I've been watching a new program that some of you might be familiar with 'Educating Yorkshire' and it's stirred up a few things that I forgot ever existed, my old ambition of  becoming a teacher. I know enough to know that I don't at this time in my life, want to change my mind and change what I'm studying at University, but it just goes to show that some things never really leave you; old dreams, memories and ambitions. I 100% in my heart want to become a Mental Health Nurse, but maybe one day, if I ever need a change in career then that's something I could look into. But if I am really honest, the place in my heart that nursing has doesn't leave much room for anything else, and teaching is pretty much a memory and it's interesting to see how I've changed over the past couple of years. 

 

I would love to hear about anyone elses previous ambitions - if any, I would also love to hear about whether you knew you would always want to be part of the profession that you are now, whatever that may be. 

 

Thanks for reading! 

X

Money, money, money ...

I was laying in bed a couple of mornings ago and thought, wow it's really only 4 months until I start university ... I better get a move on and sort a couple of things out!!! One of the most important and most worrying things is money while I'm studying. Today I've set myself a goal of creating a rough draft of my budget for uni, I say rough draft because I don't yet know how I'll be traveling to and from uni (I'm staying at home while I study, very much a home bird!) I may or may not be driving by the time that my start date comes round so it's all up in the air with regards to that at the minute. However,what I do know is that it would be much, much more cost effective for me to be able to drive before I start the course, or soon after that time anyway. 

I've realised how lucky I am as an NHS student and as someone who has chosen to stay home while they study. As you all probably know, NHS students do not pay fees, which is a great help in that we know that there is at least one thing that we don't have to worry about paying back once we finish university and qualify. I was also talking to someone who is staying in university accommodation about money etc, and she told me that once she has paid for her rent and other necessities, she has only £30 to last her for each week. Now, I'm sure she can make do with that considering she also told me her parents are going to help her out but I can't help but compare it to my own situation where I could be left with around £100 to last me the week which of course for a student is absolutely brilliant. That is of course, without part time work. Speaking of which I do have a part time job at the minute but may have to give this up when I start Uni, but to be honest I'm really not sure yet, and it would be a great help to be able to stay on as it would obviously help out with any extra expenses and other things I might need to buy to help me through my course. And of course, would give me the freedom to afford things outside of university in my free time. 

Another thing I've been thinking about is student bank accounts, there are so many, but to be honest I just think I'm going to upgrade to a student account with the provider I'm already with as I haven't been with them long and it would probably be less of a hassle. Unless anyone knows anywhere that is offering a good student bank account deal?

I would really appreciate it if anyone has any ideas or tips about how to manage money while at uni or if they found anything that helped them manage their money well while they were studying. I will always appreciate someone taking the time to comment on my blog and to give me some hints and tips :)